The Liminalist # 153: Jordan Peterson’s Elusive Metaphysic (with Norman Young)

First of two-part conversation with Norman Young on from biology to theology, The Last Jedi, investigating Jordan Peterson, the meaning of life vs purpose of life, “don’t think about futility,” de-emphasizing Satan, a worldly focus, keeping it equivocal, Peterson’s metaphysic, a pragmatic context, Darwinism as metaphorical context, the concept of eternity, a Liberal Protestant ethic, belief as action, ethical truth, an evolving perspective, Maps of Meaning, the Biblical series, wrestling with the incarnation, myths as extracted patterns of human behavior, use of archetypes, what does Peterson mean by meaning, building a myth, reasons to act, seeking a myth that fits biology, left & right brain function, fudging the data, Rene Girard as counterpoint to Peterson, mimetic violence & the scapegoat mechanism, sacrifice as a worldly practice, the limits of Peterson’s self-sacrifice, a loving father figure, running counter to the Biblical ethic, Social & Spiritual Darwinism, the will to power, hierarchies of competence, is Peterson a gateway to Christianity?, what psychologists do, Peterson & anti-depressants, Jungian psychology, psychedelics and religious experience, the inexplicability of consciousness, keeping the door open, Whitley Strieber & Prisoner of Infinity, the spoken word, speaking beyond his competence, an illustration of human excellence, on the edge of chaos, the moment of discovery, liminalism, Peterson as performer, being led by ideas, the transformation of the Peterson project, modeling an idea of heroism, Pagan vs Christian hero, standing up to totalitarianism.

Norman’s website:

Norman’s Essay on Peterson.

The Cross Marks the Spot: Jordan Peterson’s Treasure Map of Meaning (Answer to Jordan # 1)

Songs: “I’m Going Insane” & “Clap Your Hands” by Lee Maddeford; “I Asked My Mom” & “If It All falls Through” by the Blacks.

The Liminalist # 152.5: The Straw of Identification (with Gregory Desilet)

Part two of return conversation with Gregory Desilet, on cognitive dissonance of critics, morality vs. taste, the benign effects of art, Taxi Driver, Fight Club the book and film, the critic’s role, Pauline Kael as midwife, the quality of response, an absence of contrapuntal characters, a circle of victimage, John Hinckley, Jr., the need for self-confrontation, advertising to the 1%, Natural Born Killers, movies as triggers, The Sopranos, Paul Schrader writing Taxi Driver, shared male issues, the experience of alienation, the straw of identification, movies as signs of decadence, Tarantino and movie sadism, exposing the pernicious narrative, how to have a positive effect on the culture, modeling vs. lecturing, the rigors of academic writing, liminality & the benefits of being lost, moving outside one’s area of expertise, honing skills, postmodernism and Jordan Peterson, misunderstanding Derrida, Lyotard, postmodernism as diagnosis vs postmodernism as solution, postmodernist metaphysics, oppositional relations, Newton, Einstein, quantum mechanics and postmodernism, contextualism, modernity and postmodernity as continuum, Derrida’s spirituality, the new atheists.

Songs: “I’m Going Insane,” “15 Bistro 2” by Lee Maddeford; “Head On String” & “Rest My Bones/Diablo” by the Blacks.

The Liminalist # 152: Semblance of an Enemy (with Gregory Desilet)

Return two-part conversation with Greg Desilet, on rethinking melodrama, mythology and Joseph Campbell, the Greeks & Nietzsche, myths vs. melodrama, violent myths as relief from disembodiment, a home for the displaced, the opposite of art, message movies, Dostoyevsky, Mary Shelly’s Frankenstein, Taxi Driver, sympathy for the damned, Texas Chainsaw Massacre, how Leatherface feels, puberty & possession, the male assaulted, Psycho & the slasher template, mother bondage and male hostility to women, an evolution in melodramatic structure, cosmological notions of evil, a Manichean identity formation, Girard & mimetic rivalry, the function of obstacles and rites of passage, manufactured outrage, The Matrix, becoming a man, the father-principal, the semblance of an enemy, facing the paper tiger, Fight Club, Peckinpah’s Wild Bunch, the quality of attention, the role of a critic, movies and reality, using art as a virtual reality domain, what’s being sold to us, the distinction between decadent and healthy art.

Greg’s site.

Songs: “I’m Going Insane 2,” by Lee Maddeford; “Things Fall Apart” by We Is Shore Dedicated; “To Learn,” by Tendon Levey; “Come Get Us Again” by  Rose Windows.

The Liminalist # 151: No Atheists in Foxholes (with Elena Nikitina)

Conversation with Elena Nikitina, author of Girl, Taken, on when the Soviet Union collapsed, when structures dissolve, growing up in Communist Russia, banking collapse, mobsters moving in, victims of the system, Elena’s kidnapping, telling her story, meeting Patrick Quinlan, working on Smoked screenplay, Natasha Kampusch, Grasshopper script, trauma, being a survivor, the survivor community, Adverse Childhood experiences study, human trafficking, high-level child sexual abuse, a book about hope, a negative miracle & a positive, a feeling of powerlessness, summoning the resolution, despair and prayer, an intimate relationship with the divine, no atheists in foxholes, no real communism in the USSR, living in the US.

Songs: “I’m Going Insane,” “15 Bistro 2” by Lee Maddeford; “The Days of Our Summer” by Sasha Miskin;

The Liminalist # 150.5: A Divine Facsimile (with Nick Goudie)

Second of two-part conversation with Nick Goudie, on Christian conservatives, Nick’s conversion & baptism, Liberal Christianity, democracy vs. monarchy, Jordan Peterson & working to build a better world, social progress & Christianity, the End Times, attempts to reshape God’s creation, the virus of reform, dialectics, spiritual Darwinism, civilized barbarities, an image of God, Fabian revolutionaries, religion for the weak & stupid, the folly of fighting science with religion, embodying & talking, JBP’s divine facsimile, C. S. Lewis, psychedelics & religious experience, American pragmatism, William James, JBP’s self-authoring suite, SWEDA, early viral marketing moves with JBP, raising the right questions & raising the level of the debate, a Lutheran’s perspective on JBP, Girard & the Bible as textual system or ‘technology,” taking apart the doctrine, choosing to mimic Christ, the one choice we have, JBP’s theory of sacrifice vs. Girard’s theory, progressing towards Utopia, God, Man, & the Devil, instruments of a counterfeit, Gnosticism.

Accompanying Essay: Intolerable Ambiguity: Jordan Peterson and the Problem of Prematurely Articulated Order (2 of 2)

Outtakes from the conversation:

Podcast edits: Play in new window | Download (Duration: 12:47 — 7.8MB)

Christ-incarnation in relation to the Fall; Lucifer’s assignation.

Songs: “I’m Going Insane,” by Lee Maddeford; “If Jesus Came” by Kunstler Treu; “Murder & Ballet” by Jesus & the Christians; “Jesus in Clown Shoes” by Tapeworm Collective.

The Liminalist # 150: Jordan Peterson & the Shadow of God (with Nick Goudie)

Return conversation with Nick (Kalani) Goudie, on writing about Jordan B. Peterson, Maps of Meaning, a dream of Jordan, John de Ruiter parallels, Bible lectures and 12 Rules for Life, Trojan Horses, saving the world, the new atheists & atheism 2.0, a coherent worldview in the age of postmodernism, a Gnostic patchwork, the Sam Harris-Peterson debates, the 1st principle of truth, moral Darwinism, Harris’ “killing people for holding the wrong beliefs,” the power of charisma, Dawkins on cannibalism, a disdain for Christians, a moral framework in the absence of religion, an impasse on morals, a scientific basis for morality, a sense of God, religion as action not words, pain as meaning, acknowledging the reality of God, surrender as antithesis to Peterson’s bootstrap theory, C. S. Lewis and the great sin, advocating pride, the fundamental part of being fallen, Christian pride as counterfeit of faith, a spiritual superego, Charles Upton on God’s grace, relating to an idea of God, talking about what God is, Catholic theology leading to atheism, divine simplicity, the holes in Christian theology, the personal God, prisoners of infinity, temporal existence in eternity, a state beyond time, endless variations, the many rebellions of men, what God allowed but did not intend, free will & evil, a learning curve, the appearance of determinism, archetypal possession vs, abiding in Christ, storming heaven, the limits of Jungian psychology, the Shadow’s roots in hell, the Shadow of God, Lucifer’s plan, opposing the infinite, Jordan Peterson’s battle with Satan, the trap of defying Satan, becoming a monster to battle monsters, John de Ruiter the Gnostic heresy, identifying with Prometheus to save the world, an oppositional stance, the true vine, learning humility by consenting to circumstances, Kierkegaard and the very absurdity of faith, looking down on the plebes, projecting inadequacies onto an autistic, a narcissistic worldview, talking about whales, involuntary interaction with images of the divine, Jasun’s thrift store interactions, CS Lewis’s The Great Divorce.

Accompanying Essay: Intolerable Ambiguity: Jordan Peterson and the Problem of Prematurely Articulated Order (1 of 2)

Outtakes from the conversation:

Podcast edits: Play in new window | Download (Duration: 21:37 — 13.5MB)

A linkage between subjective and objective reality, escaping the dialectic, a Christian inside creation, essence & energy of God, Logos & God’s articulation, the transmission of scripture, abiding in Christ, the sacred vine, faith vs. works, the parameters of sin, retaining identity within Christ, the resurrection of the body, a multitude of images of God, a human essence.

Songs: “I’m Going Insane,” by Lee Maddeford; “Something About the Name” by Brother Timothy Clark; “Washed Out” by Monkey Warhol; “Jesus Wore Flip-Flops” by Alex Battles the Engelberts.

The Liminalist # 149.5: The Best of Pursuits and the Worst of Idols (with Charles Upton)

Part two of conversation with Charles Upton, on intellectual error & moral error, reigning in hell, virtual intellection, a collective psyche blown open, a new lease on atheism, drawn to phenomenology, esoteric Greek knowledge of unity, the end of Catholicism and the arrival of psychedelics, a world of spooks, religious revival, a utilitarian religion, agents of pseudo-initiation, Jordan Peterson’s 12 rules, the Goddess of reason, the robot of rationality, the concept of an evolving God, the lens of a world of change, the monolithic view of eternity, the ongoing self-manifestation of God, the best of pursuits and the worst of idols, turning Allah into Lucifer, converting to Islam, social justice liberation theology, entering the New Age, Sufi dancing with Samuel Lewis, repressing misgivings, the covenants of the prophet Mohammed, the sorcery path, the threshold of God’s house, a sense of longing, intuiting something beyond Hell, Jenny Upton’s religious path, Malachi Martin, the metaphysical transparency of phenomena/dogma, the Trinity, Brideshead Revisited, flaws in the transcription of transmission, Christian paradoxes, the problem of Hell, the difference between perpetual and eternal, God’s gift of free will, choosing to burn, the furthest distance from God, C.S Lewis and The Screwtape Letters, resisting God’s love, divine discontent, the desire to leave earth, letter from a prisoner, astral projection & lucid dreaming, trying to land, seeking incarnation, finding transcendence through immanence, an anti-Christian doctrine, getting Christianity existentially, theurgy & occultism, Western ceremonial magic, occultism as rebellion, a schism in the church, the Hermetic tradition, renaissance magic, Platonic wisdom, Augustin, & Aquinas, the negative identity of religion, Crowley’s rebellion, Dante’s inferno, Fedeli d’Amore, the 3rd order of the Templars, creating modern Italian, the lost cantos of Paradiso, undoing knots with writing.

Charles Upton’s site.

Accompanying Blog-post: Traditional Metaphysics and the True Religious: Encountering Charles Upton

Songs: “I’m Going Insane,” “15 Bistro 2” by Lee Maddeford; “Ladder” by Sasha Miskin; “Fake Out Jesus” by the Blacks.

The Liminalist # 149 (Elder Wisdom 3): The 2-Edged Sword of the Psyche (with Charles Upton)

First of two-part conversation with poet and traditional metaphysician Charles Upton, on Garbanzo’s attitude, Upton’s answer to Alexander Dugin, Jasun’s answer to Jordan Peterson, living in the latter days, the New Age folly, optimistic pessimism, looking for the worst, into the dark side, the laughing man, the fall of Lucifer & the etiology of the ego, the Nous, the first Intellect, the Gnostic heresy, cosmic paranoia, Frithjof Schuon, trying to get back to the Garden, there embodiment of a split, the prophetic books of William Blake, Lucifer as trauma victim, Charles’ memory of the ego’s arrival, a robot dream, antichrist as pinnacle of artificiality, the Sufi path, the two arcs, Joseph Chilton Pearce and the defense system ego, adolescence trauma, an inverted rite of passage, negative identity, adult materialist and child mythologizers & vice versa, self-initiating hippies, mundane wisdom, following Castaneda to Mexico, CIA LSD MKULTRA, the disgorging of archetypes, engineered chaos, Whitley Strieber & the spiritual elite, Castaneda dreams, a profound order of truth, the question of power, the beaten path of the will to power, the left-hand path & self-will, the error of all our trials, removing the soul’s tattoos, the toll of psychedelics, getting high off Kundalini yoga, spiritual and psychic impressions of what is always so, the 2-edged sword of the psyche, the obstacles & the path, the Nafs & gnosis of the self & God, a revolution of inner being, lost in the psychic realms, the border between worlds, the bid for immortality, a spook that lives forever, intellectual error and moral error.

Charles Upton’s site.

Accompanying Blog-post: Traditional Metaphysics and the True Religious: Encountering Charles Upton

Songs: “I’m Going Insane,” by Lee Maddeford; “My Ground Brakes Clank” and “My Prayer They Taper” by Tendon Levey; “Let Your Hammer Ring” by Monkey Warhol.


The Liminalist # 148.5: Who Pays the Piper (with Theodore Dalrymple)

Part two of conversation with Theodore Dalrymple (Anthony Daniels), on the urge to liberate as a totalitarian urge, liberacion vs. salvation, seeking perfection in legislation, Trump as lightning rod, the Trump double-bind, the whirligig of time, a declining demographic of Trump support, illiberal liberalism, antifa fascism, Katy Hopkins protests, society as an imaginary autonomous entity, everyday oppression, a hierarchy of bullying, the managerialism of our lives, the desire for freedom for consequences, who pays the piper, aligning our desires with the State and corporations, a worthy authority, a life of suffering, self-inflicted suffering as a sign of privilege,  Chekov’s choice, misfortune as destiny, to misery born, a systematic denial of agency, complicity with monsters, taking the religious viewpoint too far, possessed by trauma, the danger of absolution dehumanizing, dealing with panhandlers, the last days of the tramp, reserving compassion for pure victims, dividing the world into victims and perpetrators, creating the scapegoat, the reverse of sentimentality, the Alt-Right, conspiracy speculation, conspiracies vs. The Conspiracy, the evidence for social engineering, the harm done by bad ideas, the Fabians’ Open Conspiracy, open ostentation of vice, Jimmy Savile, the Freudian sect, complicity as conspiracy.

Accompanying essayHigh-Road to Hell: Theodore Dalrymple & Progressive Politics as Perpetual Misery Machine (2 of 2)

Songs: “I’m Going Insane,” “Away from Here,” Embellir” (with Les Gauchers Quintet), “15 Bistro 2,” by Lee Maddeford.

The Liminalist # 148 (Elder Wisdom 2): The Unintended Consequences of the Quest for Sub-Lunar Perfection (with Theodore Dalrymple)

Two-part conversation with Theodore Dalrymple (Anthony Daniels), opening Dalrymple excerpt on equality of opportunity, conspiracy or coincidence of interest, totalitarianism without accoutrements of tyranny, how nothing succeeds like failure, perpetual motion misery machine. Conversation: discovering Dalrymple, degenerative culture and improved living conditions, the value of comfort, medical advances, milk and licorice cures, when the devil makes work for idle hands, humanity as Sisyphus, the assumption of progress, Scottish colorists and the idea of progressive art, solving the problem of death, a misapplied metaphor, the attempt to remove suffering, Job’s suffering, the religion of social progress, serial monomania, moral enthusiasms, Marxism & transcendence, determinism & voluntarism, history-as-God, being Fabianized, reforming relationships between men & women, no escaping misery, the unintended consequences of the quest for sub-lunar perfection, contradictory desires & original sin, religious heresy, Jasun growing up among champagne socialists, a secular religious mindset, the aesthetic dimension of religion, Catholic advertising, God’s truth as beauty, belief as a means to reconcile oneself to suffering, Theodore’s father & East London in the early 1900s, infant mortality rates, the question of intention, UN in Haiti and a cholera epidemic, the difference between conspiracy & cover-up, UNICEF’s poisoned wells in Bangladesh, distinguishing incompetence from malevolence, when good intentions turn into malevolence, hiding from original sin, wishing our friends’ ill, a disease of the poor, redefining poverty in the context of equality, impoverished multi-millionaires, the desire for a providential role.

Accompanying essay: High-Road to Hell: Theodore Dalrymple & Progressive Politics as Perpetual Misery Machine (1 of 2)

Songs: “I’m Going Insane 2,” “Away from Here,” “Hymne Venus,”  & “Ouverture” by Lee Maddeford.

The Liminalist # 147.5: The Limits of Language (with Gregory Desilet)

Second of two-part conversation with Gregory Desilet, on cultural regression in drama, assigning guilt to technology, evolutionary intervention, the power to enact a distortion, an environmental feedback loop, hypermodernism, a bifurcation, Trump vs. Obama, the mask behind the face of Antichrist, living in the end times, seeing the Adversary, faith in the inward glance, the world as adversarial presence, Socrates’s self-examination, praising Prisoner of Infinity, rushing in to audience cults, assuming a skeptical position, boiling down experience, the past that haunts, trying on belief, a scientific approach, open skepticism, a mad scientist’s approach, the tragic trajectory, defining faith, moralism & postmodernism, Jacques Derrida, contextualism vs. radical relativism, how meaning arises, words over swords, brink of catastrophe, compelled speech laws, language as first casualty, Derrida & feminism, understanding how language works, the limits of language, the polarization of dialogue, why Derrida deserves a second look, rescuing Derrida from his legacy, sorting wheat from chaff, the difference between spoken & written word, the unconscious content of text, layers of context, zip files of meaning, an artificial boundary of sense, infinite context/finite language, totalitarian thinking, taking words out of context, words vs. images, a text-based world, liberty, fraternity, equality, purification & words, the inherent absolutism of words, an ideal off the rails the superposition of yin in yang, how to be led by ideals but not overwhelmed, Man aspires, God acts, the Jesus journey, a complicated relationship with Catholicism.

Accompanying post: Gregory Desilet Answers Jordan Peterson on Derrida.

Greg’s site.

Songs: “I’m Going Insane 2,” “Ill Take My Leave” (reprise), “15 Bistro 2” by Lee Maddeford; “Thorough Queen” by The Agrarians.

The Liminalist # 147 (Elder Wisdom # 1): The Hero Who Looks Within (with Gregory Desilet)

Two-part conversation with Gregory Desilet, on the wisdom of the elders, Our Faith in Evil, the inherent paradox of evil, evil as misperception, Greg’s Roman Catholic upbringing, a polarized image of the world, how to conceptualize dichotomy,  movies and myths as collective dreams, Christ on the cross, Mel Gibson’s Passion of the Christ as revenge drama, the depth of Christ’s suffering in relation to the scope of human depravity, the brutality of nature, demonizing Nature, the Gnostic view, an original dichotomy, Jasun’s rejecting atheism, Christ as tragic hero, reading the Gospel, the hero who looks within, conflict resolution, tragedy as a means to a higher resolution, Girard & the scapegoat mechanism, Kenneth Burke, scapegoating via literature, symbolic victimage, the generative principle of difference, the ego’s self-rejection, Blue Velvet and sympathetic villains, reflexive melodrama, Moby Dick and the reversal of hero-villain polarity, Les Miserables, Red River, Fight Club’s changeover, The Godfather as tragedy, evil vs. evil stories, Aristotle and the odious drama, seeking contrapuntal characters, voyeuristic activity, empathy for Michael Corleone, organized crime in America, what would Aristotle think of Shakespeare?

Greg’s site.

Songs: “I’m Going Insane 2,” “Le Monstre,” “Vice Versa” by Lee Maddeford; “The(se) Terror Twin(ne)s” by The Agrarians.

The Liminalist # 146.5: The One I Never Was, or: How to Avoid Archetypal Possession (Chronicles of a False Awakening, Part 6)

Final part of Chronicles of a False Awakening, on taking on a demon form, God coming all the way down, Matrix Warrior, true depression, running with Keanu, the place of euphoria, disappearing daily, Charles Upton on Lucifer, God’s knowledge of Himself as Other, the etiology of the ego, an impossible dream, levels of God, getting the idea of Matrix Warrior, publishing deal at Orion, Jake counts his chickens, Simon Spanton & the lap of the gods, intimations of ruin, “don’t change anything,” Jordan Peterson’s story, a messianic figure, channeling Kek, the carrier of divine virus, how best to avoid archetypal possession, the grip of the gods, Terry Gilliam & the Wachowskis, success city here we come, contemplation & expression of truth, post-fiction existence.

The Matrix Didn’t Want Me (Accompanying Blog Post)

Songs:  “Amertume,” by My Jacket is Yours; “If You Wanna” by George; “The Stories We Tell Ourselves” by The Womb.

The Liminalist # 146: For the Love of a Dog (Harry’s Game, Chronicles of a True Awakening Part 5)

Chronicles of a True Awakening (part 5), taking a psychic dump on my audience, a lucid crap scenario, a self-diagnosis, threads of shit, moving towards truth, why people take to religion, an external structure, summoning Lucifer, the danger of sacrifice, power of the fool, spiritual suicide, Satan’s well-earned reputation, Jake’s psychotic naiveté, alien minerals inside a meteorite, organized abuse, organized religion, father and brother, the father’s half-life, nihilism as worship, the Promethean fire, an anti-Christian mindset, religion as cover for victimization, the only strength there is, giving the finger to the father, the epitome of godlessness, the father’s passing, the telepathic tapestry of souls, disaster strikes, Harry is struck down, a series of sacrifices, the left-hand-path, the King of the Jinn, the sacrifice of a child, a defining moment of horror, becoming Christ, a vehicle out of control, surrendering to God, a realization of powerlessness, love for the devil, running from Satan, art & pain.

Accompanying blogpost, “God’s Love in Action.”

Songs: “Isijavanje” Srce Male Rode III;  “Stjernen” by Oskar Schuster (ft Possimiste); “Cold To The Touch” by Amanita Dodola; “The Stories We Tell Ourselves” by The Womb.

The Liminalist # 145.5: The Geometrics of Pain (with Guido Preparata)

Part two of a conversation with Guido Preparata, on what the ruling class get up to in secret, making the masses comfortable and soft, Masonic Lodges of articulation, a close connection to carnal laceration, MKULTRA and traumagenesis, looking at Whitley Strieber, confusion between enlightenment and empowerment, the politics of shock & awe, matrix revolution, Carl Jung: where’s the damage, Rudolph Steiner mishmash, Guido’s Catholicism, what’s the appeal of Crowley, Carlos Castaneda, empowerment narratives, the world of adults, the Gnostic heresy, origins of evil, Lucifer & Ahriman, rejecting the notion of evil, a template of trauma, who forged this world of pain, Lucifer’s day of creation, the realm of the psyche, a split in God, the technocratic structure of Ahriman, Christ the apex, Chronicles of a False Awakening, reaching the dead-end of sorcery.

Guido’s website

Songs: “Ivory” by Amanita Dodola; “Nebo” by Mizar.

The Liminalist # 145: When Buried Phantasms Reign Supreme (with Guido Preparata)

Part one of a two-part conversation with Guido Preparata, on why conspiracy theory is  too important to leave to conspiracy theorists, the academic world, the myth of agency,  centers of power, the mechanized beehive, the class division, Alex Jones, insider knowledge and oaths, a sociological study of Jones, a custodianship of truth, an academic caste system, monks and universities, veneration of power over truth, the survival of free-thinking spirits, a kept class, The Ideology of Tyranny, the PC-movement, Foucault, buried phantasms reigning supreme, the white male monster, the lineage of the politics of diversity, Bataille plagiarized, Kripal & Strieber, postmodernism & Satanism, the conservatism of postmodernism, white pig art, praising the poor, killing the universals, the lingo of power, arguments that eat themselves, the creation of cognitive dissonance, cognitive  malformation, a regime of discursive terror, the spread of dissonance, information overload by design, the view of the despot, the drive for power, how stories are told, a barbarous mindset, securing privilege, the shape of the psyche, organized ritual  abuse, dark conspiratainment, social engineering & child traumatization, the cult of violence, Ernst Jünger & pain as the foundation of life, postmodernist strands of violence, soft masses.

Guido’s website

Songs: “Blindfold” (with Adriano Dias Pereira), by Sava Marinkovic; “Jagode” by Bitipatibi; “Dumbo”
by Amanita Dodola.




The Liminalist # 144: The Sadness of a Fallen Angel (The Judgment of Jake, COAFA # 4)

Part four of “Chronicles of a False Awakening,” opening or closing to humanity, the moral of Jake’s story, the sadness of a fallen angel, archetypal language, the degradation of the metaphysical tradition, Unity denied, the judgment of Jake, seeking Trinity, Sebastian’s crucifixion, among the chimera, an archetypal dyad, managing annihilation anxiety, meeting Ram Dass, psychic vomit, Tyler Durden and Jack, a lawful kind of hubris, rejecting the vengeful God, getting into character, the natural impulse of love, a bringer of light, head to head with Mike, directing Satan, a crisis of confidence, many Ones, losing the plot, being possessed by God, God or counterfeit, Christ in Hades.

King Kill 34 (Chronicles of a False Awakening Part 4, accompanying blog post)

Songs: “Waltz for Zacaria” by Cholate; “Noise Problems”  by Scout Niblett; “Versipelllis” by The Underscore Orkestra; “The Stories We Tell Ourselves” by The Womb

The Liminalist # 143: Lucifer’s Ladder (Chronicles of a False Awakening, Part 3)

“Chronicles of a False Awakening,” part 3, on ceaseless pressure, Charles Upton’s System of Antichrist, intensity as the only measure in occultism, psychic and spiritual planes, when deterioration becomes deviation, the Lazarus experience, the Christ key, flying pyramids, Close Encounters of the 3rd Kind, the mothership, a poisoned womb, spaceships on the horizon, a Christian imprint, Neo as Antichrist, Satan as lowest octave of the God continuum, the Lucifer ladder, arrival at the upperworld, introducing Mark Lawn, a true Wang-boy, a military operation, Strieber’s The Key as disinformation, kundalini & health, salvia divinorum & mother-possession, a dangerous game, shamantics, heroin whores, letting the demons down, turning a life into a performance, the id monster unleashed, faking it to make it, waking the lucid crew, accelerating the program, urban shaman, a new suit, becoming the One, Mike LaBurt, feeding the feeling, what freedom looks like, getting psyched up for battle, putting aside the kid gloves, madness as freedom, the spirit of antichrist, a hunger to be validated, a loving response, serving the collective, the first day, smoking out Posy, alternate reality perception, leaving a mark, Posy’s death.

Accompanying essay: Dead Souls & Live Poets: Chronicles of a False Awakening, Part 3

Songs:  “Blind” and “Hirami” by Rose Windows; “The Stories We Tell Ourselves” by The Womb.

The Liminalist # 142: Between a Rock & a Hard Place (Chronicles of a False Awakening, Part 2)

Part two of the Icarus Story (Chronicles of a False Awakening), Jasun explores his past, on hitting a wall, a secret chamber, a liminal space, the shifting sands of identification, an epic time, what a magician does, a reversion to type, the myth of Narcissus, animating a hungry ghost, the godhead speaks, falling under the spell of the One, riding the psychedelic wave, what’s the value of visions, movies of the mind, working on a jigsaw puzzle, conceiving The God Game, life and death, a gift from the id, there in the tone of voice, identifying the transmission, the synchromystical tunnel, an under layer of violence, emerging wrath, magnifying a collective delusion, taking heaven by storm,  one mistaken idea, a bad seed, the movie shaman, psychedelic agenda, false visions from the Culture God, Hideous Insidious, Wangus on the penis, body problems, the twinkle of humor, a fragment of the whole, how the body expels the splinter, seduced by the idea of uniqueness, remembering the other self, when the id takes over, a secret identity, rejecting Clark Kent, living an epic life, caught in a trap, man of the people, the difference between being the One and becoming whole, an acid trip that never ends, psychedelics & stress, destroy the schmuck, a ruthless guru, a reality tunnel, a doomed mission of soul rescue.

Accompanying articleLucifer In Chains: Chronicles of a False Awakening Part 2 

Songs: “Nothing Left,” by Brown Bird; “Eulogy for Whiskers,” by Whitehorse; “Twin Suns” by Dlay &  “Perception Through Comatose State” by Arcane Waves (Mash up); “Gone” by Gary Heidt;  “The Stories We Tell Ourselves” by The Womb;

The Liminalist # 141: Icarus’s Story (Chronicles of a False Awakening # 1)

First in a new series of podcast explorations of the pseudo-awakening period of “being the One” (2000-2003), podcast update, the give & take of audience participation, books for 2018, saturation point, what is awakening?, examining the past, sticking to the facts, the purpose of being unenlightened, the splinter in the brain, premature answers, enlightenment or apotheosis, the life of the luminosity, Castaneda & Strieber quasi-mythic narratives, visionary dreams, indistinguishable from the infinite, an übermensch-ian model of transformation, the encroachment of material reality, the armor of belief, Icarus & melted wax, indescribable forces, splicing with Hollywood, a fickle god, 1999, the move to Guatemala, shaman apprenticeship with Mitch Fraas, publication of The Blood Poets, red pill experience, vision of brother’s death, discovering salvia divinorum, premature awakening,  losing the mind on an airplane, meeting Mike LaBurt, a psychotic break, entering into the life of the double, the towers falling, an agent of the apocalypse, The God Game, becoming a God, an invocation of Satan, the triumph of a Godman, anything I can imagine, bliss-dust, being a saint in the city, the One with a head-cold, by order of the spirits, what makes him the One, playing with fire, the question of personal gain in the apocalypse, the creative curiosity of a shaper of worlds, playing a manifestation of God on Earth, consolidating the power base, the opposite of epic.

Accompanying article: Lame Devil: Chronicles of a False Awakening, part 1 (Red Pill Madness in Guatemala)

Songs: “The Stories We Tell Ourselves” and “Magnets” by The Womb;  “Nevermore” by The Freak Fandango Orchestra; “En Paz” by Prjimo Bil; “Keep it Real” by Mark Williams; “Bellow” by Ben Carey; “когда же это было, Чайка” by смерть в летнюю полночь; “Morning Star” by Art of Flying.